Why i loved Savage Garden, and always will.

Ever since i heard "Truly. Madly,Deeply" for the first time, i knew that i would love this band.

And i did. And even though Daniel Jones and Darren Hayes are no longer a band /duo, i still continue to be a fan.

They made some wonderful song's, with beautiful and  meaningful lyrics, made even more powerful by Darren's emotional vocals, the songs, in my opinion, are timeless.

One of my favourite tracks is called "Two beds and a coffee machine", and it's a beautiful, haunting song about living in an abusive relationship.

I listen to their albums all the time. No matter what mood i'm in, i will find a track that fits that mood.

Savage Garden were a lot more than just another pop duo. They were something special, and they split up before they got the sucess they deserved.

If you like good music, then this is the band for you.

Ever bought an album on spur of the moment?.

I ask because, as i write this, i am listening to Elvis Costello. I like a few of his songs, and as i was standing in HMV looking for a Mariah Carey cd my mum wanted me to get her, i just happened to come across Elvis Costello and i thought 'I am gonna buy this'.

And i am glad i did. I really like the album. Its the Armed Forces one. This album is one of the best i own. And i have only listened to three quarters of it. Its that good.

Also. albums i really wanted have turned out to be crap in the past (i wanted Delta Goodrems Innocent eyes album for ages, and then when i did get it, i didn't enjoy it) so i may just start buying albums on a whim, and who knows, i may find some hidden gems out there.

The movie "Pillow Talk".

I think that i must have seen this film about 500. And i still love it.

I remember first seeing it when i was little girl. It has always been one of my favourite Doris Day movies.

It's about a career woman, Jan, who has to share a telephone line with a womanizer songwriter, Brad. They argue without any idea who each other are.

One night, Brad sees Jan in a bar, and pretends to be a tourist called Rex. Jan starts dating 'Rex', and not only is Jan's admirer Jonathon not happy about it, but Brad teases Jan about her relationship with his alter ego (only she has no idea that Brad and Rex are the same person). And Jan falls in love with Rex, and then she finds out the truth.

There's a lot of funny scenes in this movie. One is where a OBGYN nurse and doctor think Brad/Rex thinks he's pregnant, after he goes into the office to hide, and then the nurse sees him coming out of a ladies bathroom.

It's a fun movie, and one of my favourites.

Bear's haven't always been my first love.

People know i love bears. I have a few teddies and me to you bears, but they actually weren't always my first love.

Rabbits were.

When i was about 13 my Grandma bought me a medium sized bunny soft toy. It was pink and white. I adored it (i still do) and then that christmas, i got a slightly larger one. And then a collection grew.

I have about 16 in total. They are all different colours and sizes and look different, but i love them all. Some of them are my mum's but i have adopted them too.

I think with it being easter, and not seeing many rabbit/ bunny toys has made me realize how special mine are. Each one has a little story about how they found a home with me.

Looking forward to the Veronica Mars movie.

I loved Veronica Mars. If you haven't seen the show before, then you should check it out. It's about a teenage P.I who solves mysteries, but it's got a film noir feel about it. It's really good.

Anyway, i am looking forward to the film. I have read some spoilers about what may happen in it, and it sounds good. I hope it can get back to the "glory" days of the show.

I didn't mind the later shows, although i know a few people who weren't keen on them.

I hope we have a lot of Veronica and Keith moments. I loved their father /daughter moments.

I managed to make alterations to a knitting pattern.

This is the first time that has ever happened. And i am rather proud of myself.

I have been trying to knit a lipbalm holder, because i literally love lip balm. I have really dry lips and lipbalm is my lifesaver. Anyway, the pattern said use 4mm needles, and i used a variety of wool, and everytime it came out short.

I then decided to use 6mm needles and DK wool and it worked.

I made two, just to be certain the first one wasn't a fluke, and it wasn't. Both have turned out perfect.

Also, for the first time ever, i managed to purl the loops without losing any. So i have had a very productive afternoon.

I know who Nathan is (P.O.I).

Following on from my earlier post about who Nathan was in the fantastic "Person of Interest", i have now remembered who he is.

He is Will's father, and Harold's friend, and former co worker.

I had a total memory freeze lol. I still wonder why Harold called John by that name. I think i wan't it to be more than just Harold been drugged at the time. I want clues to who John Reese really is.

I actually thought John could have been Elias at first, but obviously not. I also thought that Harold could have been Nathan, and faked his own death, but that's not really gonna turn out true either.

Also, i think my favourite character is turning out to be Fusco. I love how he wants to put his past mistakes behind him, and really be a good cop. Everytime John makes him seem like he's still corrupt, i feel so bad for him. He totally has grown as a character. I love all four main characters though. And i am starting to "ship" John and Carter. I love their little chemistry.

Tired of snow.

It could just be me here, but it feels as if winter has been going on for months.

Seriously, it seem's that since new year, we have had a few days of rain and then about a week of snow, then a couple of days of rain, and then another week of snow.

Looking out of the window and guess what it's doing?, Yep, snowing.

Think maybes this year will turn into "year of the snow". It's starting to feel that way.

Person of Interest. Who is Nathan?.

I think everybody knows how much i love this show by now. And i really do love it.

I was watching the episode on channel 5 last night, it was the one with the man and woman having the same identity, and Finch ended up taking estacy (which was really funny, by the way).

Anyway, at the end of the episode Reese said "Goodnight Finch", and he replied "Goodnight Nathan".

The big question is: Is Reese's name really Nathan?. If not, who is he?.

I know a lot of people may already know the answer to this, as the uk is way behind with this show. I have read some spoilers for season two, but none of them mentioned Nathan.

And i am glad. I wanna know who Nathan is, but i wanna wait for the show to tell me. I like how this show is complex and takes time to build, and tell a story. I will wait to find out who Nathan really is.

Some quotes form "Castle".

I love Castle. It's one of my mum's (and mine) favourite shows.

It's a light hearted crime show about a crime writer, Richard Castle, who uses NYPD detective Kate Beckett as his inspiration for character, Nikki Heat. Cue lots of sexual tension and some pretty funny quotes.

Castle: I am ruggedly handsome, aren't i?.

Beckett: It's accompany and observe, not partcipate and annoy.

Castle: It's family moments like these i will never forget.
Alexis: With a good therapist, hopefully i will.

Castle: Let me know what i can do to make it up to you.
Beckett: You could leave me alone.
Castle: Yes. I tried that and it didn't work. Hey, i can buy you a pony.

If you like light hearted, kinda quirky shows then please check out this show. It's a fun show to watch, and you may love it as much as my mum and i do.

Got my next work programme appointment tomorrow.

I am actually looking forward to getting back into a routine and get out and meet new people.

I really enjoyed my group session the other day. It was fun, and i was paired with someone who i got on well with, and i like the idea of being in the same groups with the same people the whole time.

I have decided that i am not taking medication. I am not taking a pill, that is going to make me feel worse and is gonna be a nightmare to actually come off, to solve all my problems. Instead i am gonna work at them, and that means i can actually see the progress i am making and learn about who i am.

I have worked hard to get where i am now, and i am gonna continue to work at it. I am not gonna give in and take a pill to solve all my problems. That is too easy.

My favourite Red Dwarf quotes.

I have seen every episode of Red Dwarf about 100 times. I love it. I thought i would share some of my favourite quotes from the show.

Rimmer: Over the years i have come to regard you as...people i met.

Rimmer: What are we frightenly low on? Oxygen?.
Kryten: Worse. Fabric softener.

Kryten: He wont throw anything away because it reminds him of the good times he had with Rimmer. I must have blinked and missed them.

Kryten: They've taken Mr. Rimmer.
Cat: Quick, lets get out of here before they decide to bring him back.

Kryten: You're probably thinking is this going to affect my life?, and i've been thinking about this and, the answer is...yes, it is.

I will be ok when i start a new job.

I had a load of anxiety about when i find a new job. Will i find a new job?. Will i settle in ok?. Will i get on well with everyone?. Will i be able to actually do the job?. Or will the boss realize he's made a huge mistake and fire me.

Well, today i have decided that i really have nothing to be anxious over. I will be fine WHEN (and not if) i find a new job.

And, yes i will be scared and have the usual first day nerves, but i am staying positive and i am deciding that i am not gonna worry about things that may (and probably wont) happen. Instead i am deciding to focus on the positives in my life and thinking good things about myself.

To quote the Anastacia song "i'm sick and tired of always being sick and tired". And i am also tired of worrying about everything.

It really is time i find a solution so i can actually start enjoying life and all of it's challenges again.

I really liked Mr. Selfridge until.....

I love the show. I think it's perfect Sunday night entertainment. Soapy and not too taxing on the brain. I don't like one thing though.

Why couldn't the writers keep Agnes and Henri together?. Why, after weeks of building up their sweet relationship have the writers now decided that they couldn't love each other?. Why couldn't we ignore they are widely different, and just keep them together a while longer?.

I'm even more sad about the fact Victor is gonna win Agnes over. This is the guy who prostituted himself out to Lady Mae who promised to buy him a restraunt. Are we really meant to like him and Agnes together, just because they are both from the same background?.

And was Victor really that dumb to think that Lady Mae could love him in the first place?.

Too scared to take my medication.

I went to the doctors on monday and was prescribed some antidepressants, to help with my anxiety and mood swings.

But i am scared of taking them as the side effects are more scary than the actual symptoms are. I know that it's only for a few weeks,until they get into my system, but those few weeks can be a long time when you feel worse than you ever have done.

I think i need a second opinion and to talk to someone about my worries.