An affair to remember.

I love this movie. Made in 1957, it star's Cary Grant as Nikki and Deborah Kerr as Terry, a couple who meet on a cruise ship, and fall in love.

As they are both engaged to other people, they agree to meet in 6 months time, if they still feel the same.

When Nikki arrives to meet Terry, she doesn't turn up, and assumes she no longer loves him, but unaware of the awful accident she has had.

Famously featured in 'sleepless in seattle', this is a true, classic chick flick. And a sad one at that.

A happier post.

I like build a bear. I have posted about my bears and animals i have from there in an earlier post.

Anyway, i was looking at another bear i have, an un-build a bear one, and realized that the build a bear clothes fit this other bear i have. And she look's lovely in the little dress. And it fit's perfect.

I sit my bears all around my room, and dressing them up will make them look even cuter.

Another reason i worry about that new jobsite.

Not only do i worry that 6 hours jobsearch won't be enough (and that's going to the library everyday), what if i can't?.

I still have 'down day's' and i just do thing's i like, watch a dvd, etc) and then i jobsearch on an evening, when i feel better.

I can't do that now. I can't access the site on my phone ( not fully) so that's my worry. Feel i am really screwed.

Having a down day today.

Sorry to be so negative, just needed to get a few things off my mind.

I am screwed. I need to do so much stuff, and i have so little time to do everything in.

My mum needs me to do things for her on the computer (like emails and things) and i use my phone for some things, but it has a character limit, and i am not able to actually use my phone for everything i need to do. With this new jobcentre website, it actually times what times you are on the site for, when you look at jobs, the jobcentre can even tell you which jobs to apply for through it. ]

I use the library for the stuff i need to do. Now, i get an hour on the internet, but i know for a fact that an hour wont be enough jobsearch (plus theres days when i can't even use the library, they have classes sometimes) and then add on everything else i need to do, i just dont have enough time.

I want to do an open university course, but then again, i need to use the library for that, so i won't have time to do that (and i think doing a course would actually help me in the jobsearching, as it will prove i am able to manage my time and that i am not lazy etc), plus i wanted to do some volunteer work, but if i have to spand at least 35 hours a week in front of a computer, on that site, i wont have time.

I get that job searching is important. I do a lot of jobsearch a week, but i like to have control of what i apply for. I have spent a lot of time in therapy, trying to take some control of my life, and then if i have control of the jobs i apply for, then i don't freak out thinking that i have to be the perfect candidate. I apply for jobs I know i can do, so when i go for the interview, i don't spend hours /days worrying that when i get there, they are gonna ask why the hell did i apply for the job, as i have no chance of getting it.

I still have this paranoid feeling that i am crap at interviews, and employers only ask me to attend so they will see how crap i am under pressure.

Plus, i have to find out why i am so 'slow'. not mentally, or anything, but whenever i have had a job, i have been told i am too 'slow' in stacking shelves, and doing tasks. I do have co-ordanation problems, and i had to have speech therapy as a kid, and some sessions on improving my co-ordanation as well, so i think it links in to that, but my therapist suggested i look into what was wrong. I read and write fast, so its not a menatl problem, more of a physical one.

Anyway, i feel better now i have typed this lol. Sorry for putting a downer on the blog, but sometimes you have to get your feelongs and worries out there, in order to feel better.

Why does the church hate women so much?.

I am not religious, and i don't mean to offend anyone, but why are they so sexist?.

Just heard that the church voted against women bishop's, and my first reaction was 'why?'.

Women are equal to men. I think they will preach the exact same thing's men do, so why can't they hold the 'top job's'?.

The church complain that people don't go to church, well, maybes if they stepped into the 21st century, and embraced it, then more people would actually go to church.

I love Hello Kitty.

I have no idea how my 'Hello Kitty' obsession started, but i collect 'Hello Kitty' stuff.

I have lots of small stuff (like keyrings, stickers) and some medium stuff (i have an umbrella i don't take out in the rain lol).

I even have some Hello Kitty plushes, in different sizes, and last christmas, my boyfriend bought me some Kitty bath stuff, and i kept the cosmetic bag, and the shower cap from them to add to my collection.

Is football really about the football anymore?.

I ask as a semi -fan of football. I know it's a multi- million pound sport, but has the money killed off any passion from the players?.

Can the footballer's really love a club so much if they transfer to another for million's of pound's transfer's?.

Is it right to sack the manager's when a club is in a losing 'dip', when the manager isn't the one on the field playing in the match?.

I know it's all about the money, but is it wrong to hope that love for the game is why the player's play every week?.

Poem i wrote: Just a thought.

I know you like another girl.
But i can't help the way i feel about you.
I know that it's a fantasy.
You don't even know that i exsist.
So, how am i meant to win your heart?.

How to eat a bit more healthy.

If, like me, you wanna try and be a bit healthier, see if any of these idea's help.

Choose low fat, ready made sauces.

Buy individually wrapped treats.

Stick to recommended portion sizes.

Have canned tuna, salmon and baked beans in the cupboard, for healthy snacks.

Have breakfast. Even if it's only a smoothie.

Cut down the coffee and drink fresh fruit juice instead.

Never deprive yourself of anything. Eat whatever you want. Don't get too hung up on losing weight, please.

Finding it easier to use bathroom at home.

When the new neighbours moved in, i was really scared of using the toilet. I mean, what if they heard me?.

I would only go if i was desperate, and i would worry about going. I was a bit of a wreck.

I started using 'coping methods', and now, i am slowly dropping them one by one.

I don't know if the people next door can hear me. Maybe they can. I have to go to the toilet. I can't avoid it my entire life. It's natural and unavoidable. And nothing for me to worry about.

Brief Encounter.

I love this film. Made in the 1940's, it tell's the tale of Alec and Laura, a couple who embark on an affair.

I love this film, as it's more about Laura's feeling's of guilt and shame about her feelings, and her actions, as she reflects on events that have happened recently.

The film is told in flashback. And we see that the couple's affair wasn't glamourous or seedy. It was two people who spend time together innocently and fall in love.

They don't make film's like this anymore, sadly.

American Horror Story.

I have heard good thing's about this show, but i have never seen it. And i wonder if i ever will.

I fear it will turn into 'Twin Peaks' for me. A show i should like, but i can't understand.

The first season i could watch, probably, without being too confused, but the second season, Judging from spoilers i've read make me just go 'uh?'.

I think i will leave it to my boyfriend to be the AHS fan, and he can tell me how good it is without me having to watch. Perfect solution.

Why i vote Labour.

I come from a labour voting family. I have always been told that it's a 'Rich vs poor' world.

That's just one reason i vote labour. The other reason is the fact our local labour M.P does a lot of fighting to get things done in our area. We never see the Tory /Lib Dem M.P's around, just at election time.

For me, I don't vote for the party leader. I vote for my area. And who can GUARENTEE to make positive changes that benefit everyone.