NUFC going to be relagated?.

I know we had a really bad season, premiership wise, but i really think the problem is that we were playing in Europe as well, and we are not blessed with the never-ending players the likes of Man United and Chelsea have.

I really don't think we will be relegated. Think we may just survive by the skin of our teeth, and, then hopefully, next season climb back into the top half of the table again.

I really do want the toon to do well, but i sometimes wonder if us going playing in Europe was really a good thing, as it has left us in peril at the bottom of the table.

I don't really need my other blog.

I do have another blog, which i decided to start to talk about my love of a certain band.

Then i realize that a lot of fan's of the band have done the same thing, and now there's a lot of fan site's and blogs dedicated to the band, and they pretty much have the same stuff on them.

So, i really don't need my other blog, as i am not really adding anything to the fan world of the band. At least this blog is about me, and my randomness, and i am VERY unique, so unlikely to get some of my posts anywhere else.

This blog is what i love doing, and my other blog is just taking my time away from this one.

Tyler Hilton.

I LOVED him in 'One tree hill' playing the fantastic Chris Keller (though, i know people like Chris in real life, and they're not so fantastic), and i've always thought about listening to his music (he's a singer-songwriter, as well as being an actor), so over the weekend i downloaded a couple of his tracks, and was very impressed with what i heard.

'Picture perfect' is a lovely song, and i love it, i think it's my favourite of all the tracks i downloaded. I also love 'Prince of nothing charming', i may be wrong here (if i am, then sorry), but i'm sure that may be a cover of someone else's song, not sure whose though. Or i could be totally wrong, and Tyler could have wrote it.

Anyway, i really liked what i heard, and i am gonna have to get an album of his to put in my collection, as i really love his voice.

Just thought i would share my new discovery with you all.

So i have opened a fanfiction.net account.

I write a lot of fan fictions. At the moment, my obsession is The Monkees and Body of proof (and L&O C.I Zack and Serena fluff). I just write the stories and then put them in a file on my room.

And that used to be enough, but not anymore. I LOVE writing. I love being expressive, and even if people think they're crap, well, at least my writing is out there, and getting read.

I have yet to actually publish anything on there, but i have had a look around the site, and get a feel for it.

I'm gonna have a read through my fan fic stories, and i am gonna pick a few to put on there, and see if they get reviews and see what people think.

It's gonna be scary, but it's something i need to do.

My guilty pleasures number four. The royal.

The Royal was a ITV Sunday night drama, set in a 1960's Yorkshire hospital, in the same vein as Heartbeat.

Yes, the royal was like a soap opera, but it was a nice, simple drama that the entire family could sit down and watch.

And, it had it's action packed moments. At least once a series, one of the doctors (usually DR.Omerod) had to risk life and limb in some dangerous rescue. That was as adventureous as it got.

I have develop a love of the show when its been repeated on weekend mornings on ITV3. My mum loves this show, so always watches them, and i have grown to love the show too.

Sometimes, there's nothing wrong with gentle and character driven drama that is feel good, and nostalgic.

I have a strange obsession with Bobby Darin.

I have always loved "Dreamlover". Ever since i was a little girl, i have been in love with that song.

As i grew up, i discovered that i actually loved a lot about Bobby Darin.

He was a real inspiration, knowing he may not live to be that old (due to a heart condition he had), he was driven.

He grew up thinking his actual grandmother was his mother, and his actual mother was his sister. I can't imagine how you would deal with something like that.

He also planned to elope with Connie Francis (another singer from the era i adore), and when her father found out, he threatened to kill Bobby, bringing an end to their romance.

He was a singer of many genre's, and made every song his own, He wrote some great song's and he acted. He was a very talented man. It's sad that he died before i was born, as i would have loved to have seen him in concert. And i am sure many other fan's would share the same opinion.

A little story by me 'Forgiven'.

As she sat oppisite him, she knew this would never work out. There was too much history that she couldn't forget.
She owed herself the chance to know if she could forgive him. The simple answer was no, she couldn't.
She spoke quietly,"I'm sorry, i can't do this".
He looked at her with a vacant expression in his face. "You can't do what?".
"Forgive you" she answered, quietly. "I wish i could, and i have tried, believe me i have. I just can't get past what happened".
He nodded, sadly at her. "I do understand", his tone was sombre and filled with sadness. "I think i knew, deep down, that it was too much to ask of you. I knew you could never forgive me for what i did".
She reached down to collect her purse."I think i just realise now that i don't need a father", she admitted, truthfully. "I'm an adult and i can take care of myself".
He nodded in agreement. "I am proud of you. You have turned into a fine young woman".
They said their goodbyes, and he watched her walk out of his life, like he had done to her.

I used to own a Debbie Gibson album.....

And yet, i couldn't name one song by her.

I was given an album by a family member for christmas one year. It was the year she was in 'Grease' with Craig McClachlan (sp?), and because i said i wanted to go to London, to see the show, i'm guessing said family member thought i may have been a Debbie Gibson fan, and decided an album of her would be a great present.

It, unfortuntly, wasn't. I don't think i even got through side one (yes, it was the days of the much loved, ahem, cassette tapes) of the album before i got bored of listening to it, and threw it in a drawer somewhere.

I am sure it was a great album, but at the time (i was about 10), i only listened to music by ex neighbours stars (Kylie and Jason fanatic, me). That's why i wanted to go and see 'Grease', because of Craig McClachlan. Not because of Debbie Gibson.

Please note: My musical taste's did get slightly better as i got older. I actually listen to real musicians now, too.

Broadchurch series finale.

Although the reveal on who killed Danny wasn't exactly shocking (a lot of people had guessed who, and why), the series finale of this always wonderful series was packed full of emotion, without it ever becoming too sentimental.

In fact, every actor who was involved in this show has been fantastic, the performances have been superb, and the writing has always been top notch. This was drama at it's best.

I am so happy that it has been renewed for a second series. I just hope that the writing and acting is equal to the first series, if so, then i will be a very happy viewer.

Broadchurch is ending tonight.

I am addicted to this show. It has been compulsive viewing, and had A LOT of people talking about this show.

And there is only one question we really want answered tonight: Who killed Danny Latimer?.

I still think Tom did it. Maybes helped by Joe. Or maybes Tom and the vicar helped him dispose of Danny's body.

To be honest, i have suspected everyone of killing Danny, from his mother and grandmother to the detective who was assigned to taking care of the family when Danny's body was discovered (i can't remember his name).

I even suspected Hardy and Ellie at several parts during the series, but i now think Hardy is innocent. I also think Nigel is still involved somehow. And i also think Olly and the psychic guy are also contender's for being caught up in something dodgy to do with Danny's death.

I guess we will (hopefully) find out tonight who did kill Danny. And who guessed it right.

I come from an insane family.

It is not my fault that i'm insane. I blame my ancestory for my craziness.

My mum talks to kitchen appliances (in a good 'Lorelai Gilmore' way, not a crazy way). My grandma (bless her) was 'inquisitive' and her and i always ended up in bizzare situations (including once, getting stuck in a Blackpool phonebox. And being in a taxi that went up and down the same street a dozen times).

Her oldest brother, Fred, used to take his cat for a walk (on a lead) and talk to sheep (yes, really).

And her sister and brother-in-law were always in hospital, their neighbours thought they were trying to kill each other.

Oh, and everyone who lives in the town my Grandma grew up in knows her and her family. Not sure if that's a good thing or not. But at least my childhood was never dull.

I remember when i was a kid...

I had a doll, called Fiona, who went everywhere with me.

Everywhere i have been, Fiona has been (except seahouses, that may not have gone down well with my boyfriend). I think she may well be the best travelled doll in the uk.

I still have her at home. And, i guess the point of my post is that it's nice to have things around you that have good memories attached to them.

And whenever i look at Fiona i think of all the good times i had when i was a kid. And it's a nice feeling.

The Monkees song D.W Washburn.

This is another song that i love, and again, it's because of the story of the song.

Basically, D.W Washburn is a bum/tramp who is picked by the salvation army to 'save'. The thing is, he's perfectly happy as he is, and he wishes they would go and help someone else, as he doesn't want their help.

I also love any song that has the line "i got a bottle of wine and i'm feeling fine" in it, as this song has. How can anyone not feel fine with wine?. I know i feel fine with a glass of wine.

Ok, back to this song.  Yeah, i like this song as it always makes me smile, and i have this mental image of some guy being dragged kicking and screaming into this salvation army building, but that's just my insane imagination.

Meredith Brooks song : Birthday.

I love this song. It's by Meredith Brooks (who had a big hit with Bitch, and this song is on the same album as Bitch), and it's basically about a VERY desperate woman.

The lyrics tell us the story of a woman, who is on a first date with some guy, and she want's to marry him, and have his babies and spend her life with him, but she doesn't even know when his birthday is.

It always makes me laugh in a way, as i think we have all had our own desperate moments (i know i have) but, hopefully, we haven't came across as bunny boilers, like the woman in this song does.

Anyway, i just really like this song. And the story of the song.

Why was i scared?.

I was kinda scared about my dentist appointment. I have never had a root canal done before, and expected it to be majorly painful and incomfortable.

And it wasn't. Seriously, i didn't feel anything at all. I haven't even had much pain at all since, except the odd dull twinge every so often, but nothing i've needed painkillers for.

It was nothing like i feared it would be.

Lesson learnt. My therapist was right. Sometimes we worry about things so much, and convince ourselves that things won't be ok, and that makes us avoid certain situations (me; dentists), but we shouldn't avoid them.

We should face our fears (in manageable ways) and we will find out then that, often, we CAN handle the situations we avoided, and each time we confront said situation, then slowly our fear dissapears, and we realize that there's nothing to be scared of.

That's how i am viewing going to the dentist for now on. Nothing to be scared of.

My guilty pleasure number three. Cheaters.

I found 'Cheaters' by accident one night, when i was channel hopping, and within 5 minutes i was crying with laughter.

We had the voice over guy coming up with such great lines like "she skipped down the street" and "He waddled to his car".

And then the woman who found out her boyfriend was cheating on her with some bunny boiler accidentally hit the presenter while aiming at her boyfriend.

Then some guy from a previous show, who was sleeping with his best mate's girlfriend, was saying that he has no idea why said best friend no longer speaks to him.

This show is so bad, it's addictive and i love it. It's certainly entertaining, and there's usually a punch up in every episode.

Oh, and EVERYTIME the cheat gets confronted, they ALWAYS say "it's not what it looks like". Everytime. They've been caught cheating on camera, yet it's never what it looks like.

I know i shouldn't be finding people's heartache so entertaining. But, sorry i do.

My guilty pleasures number two. Jackie Collins.

I love Jackie Collins. I have been reading her books since i was 14. She inspired me to read. And write.

I love how she writes strong, powerful women characters, who know what they want and set out to get it. People call her books trashy, but they're better than stuff like 50 shades of gray, as Jackie would NEVER write women characters who enjoyed being abused. Her characters are sexually confident and will not be victims.

I am currently reading "the Lovekiller's". Its about 3 women who use sex to destroy the man they want revenge on. It's really good.

I love Lucky Santangelo. She is THE ultimate kick ass heroine.

I will continue to read Jackie Collins books forever. I adore them. No matter how tacky people seem to think they are.

Have my dentist appoinment tomorrow.

I have a bit of a dentist phobia. It all started when my old dentist (who, strangely gave kids chocolates and lollipops, which must be great for teeth,not) retired, and the woman who replaced him decided that, considering i need 2 shots of injections for my mouth to numb, she would put a filling in without the injection.

Needless to say, i changed dentists. My next one was great, but left. I then decided i was fine, and not need a dentist.

And then i had problems, and now i have a new dentist. He's ok, so hopefully i will be be ok when it comes down to the treatment starting.

All in all, i have started to conquour my dentist phobia.

A little post about my Grandma.

My Grandma, Amy, and i were very close. She looked after me a lot when i was a kid, and, even though she's been dead for 15 years, i still miss her sometimes.

She was very quiet. In fact her nickname was "little shy", but she also had a mean temper, and wouldn't hesitate to stand up for herself and her family.

She was also very nosy. I remember when i was a kid, we went away on holiday, and when she discovered that all the keys and locks were the same, she would actually go into other people's rooms and look around. And i had to keep watch.

She would attend every school play and concert that i was in. She was so proud of me. Even when she was ill, and couldn't leave the house, she asked for videos and photos of plays and concerts, so she could watch me in them.

I didn't grow up with my dad around, but i had my mum and grandma, so i was lucky. My grandma was a strong and quirky woman, and i was honoured to have the chance to get to know her.

My guilty pleasures number one.

I loved Ricky Martin back in the day. I admit, i still play his greatest hits album to this day. There is just something about his music that makes me happy.

Songs like 'Livin' la vida loca' and 'she bangs' and the super-infectious 'Shake your bon bon' just make me happy. They make me wanna dance around like the crazy woman i am.

And he did some really beautiful songs too. 'She's all i ever had' and 'come to me' are two of my favourites too, and 'Be careful' with Madonna is fantastic too. And i love 'Nobody wants to be lonely' with Christina Aguilera, too.

It was a shame his fan base grew up /went off him / realized they didn't have a chance with him since he's gay, but whatever it was, it's a shame. I think Enrique is great, but doesn't have that latin pop vibe Ricky had. And i miss him releasing song's over here.

I write everyday.

I always write something everyday, regardless of what it is.

I write blog posts, short (sometimes VERY short) stories, fan fictions, poems, song lyrics (i can't play anything, or read/ write music, but i get a tune inside my head and i write the words to go along with it).

I have even started thinking about writing book and dvd reviews.

I also have a few longer stories i'm working on as well. I can't just work on one thing at a time. I love mixing up my writing projects, and write a scene for each story, and a fan fic or shortetr story in between.

I would love to be a best selling author one day.

At the moment, i am writing a LOT of Monkees fan fics. My mum's friend has let us borrow her dvds of the show, and i am getting a lot of idea's. I may share them on some fan website's.

Basically, i have an addicted to writing. It's one of my favourite things to do.

What would Marilyn do?.

Marilyn Monroe is my idol. I think she was inspirational and under-rated as an actress, and as a singer.

Anyhow, i have picked Marilyn as my muse. Whenever i have a moment in my life when i am un -decided about something, i ask myself one important question.

"What would Marilyn do?".

I find that if i 'step away' from a problem, and look at it from another point of view, then i tend to come up with answers more quickly, and make better choices (something i learnt from my CBT) and i pick Marilyn as my view-point. It sounds crazy, but it really does work for me.

I love country music.

I am a not -so -closeted country music fan. I love the stories and the sadness and the drama in the songs.

I love Dolly Parton's music. She's wrote some amazing song's. I also love the country diva's, like Martina McBride, Leann Rimes, Shania Twain, Faith Hill, Trisha Yearwood, Carrie Underwood. I think they are all amazingly talented with beautiful voices.

I love Keith Urban too. And Tim McGraw. I really don't listen to many male country artists, as i relate to the women's songs more, but i love these two singers, and their voices.

I was a fan of Mindy McCready too, back in the day. 'Oh Romeo' is another favourite country song ever. It's sad she's gone.

I also love the Dixie Chicks. No matter what they say and do, i will forever remain a fan of the girls.

I would love to go to Nashville someday, and just embrace the whole country music scene. That would be cool.

Leann Rimes. She is still a fantastic singer.

Everything i read about her now is all connected to Eddie Cibrian (Is that how you spell his name?) and his ex wife. And her rehab stint.

But, i wonder if people have forgotten that she is a fantastic singer. I mean 'How do i live' is a beautiful song, and, as much i love Trisha Yearwood, i think Leann's version is better just because of how lovely her voice is.

And 'Blue' is one of my all -time favourite country songs ever.

Yes, i know that she had an affair that wrecked 2 marriages, and i know my opinion of her as a person went down a little after that, but i kinda wish the media would just let that go and concentrate on what she is known for, and what her fans love her for. Her singing.

The Great British Sewing bee. BBC2.

I don't know why, because my sewing skills are just moderate at best, but i am kinda hooked on this quirky little show.

It reminds me of 'Project Runway' in a way, and i love that show, so maybes that's why i love it.

I have just found out that there's only four episodes, so it's already half way through the series. Lets just hope there is another series, as it really is lovely to watch.

Living where you live.

Do you like where you live?. The area, i mean. I wish i could say that i did. But i can't.
 
As i went out today, i noticed just how dodgy and down my area looked. The next street along from mine is a building site, literally, as some company is building new houses on the land there.
 
I just wonder who in their right mind is gonna wanna live there. It's depressing.
 
There again. i've lived there 31 years, and it wasn't always depressing. It was only about 10 -15 years ago that it went downhill, but its not as bad as it once was, but even so, its not exactly the Orange County.
 
I, hopefully, will be leaving the area soon, so its just a case of hanging on until i fand some place better.

Why i love The Monkees.

Yeah, that's right. I am a huge fan of the band that was around in the late 60's, when i wasn't even born.

I have always loved "Last train to Clarksville" and "I'm a believer" since i was a kid. My mum was a fan way back when the tv show was on telly. She also remembers when Davy Jones was in Coronation Street.

Anyway, i knew they had a tv show and that they had a few songs. That's really about all i knew until i watched a documentary about them on tv, and i didn't quite realize that they started out as a spoof band on some tv comedy aimed at ten year old girls and turned into this real band, who released quite a few pop songs. Good pop songs. And i had no idea about their movie either.

I wanna watch "Head" now. I haven't seen that. I am so thankful that YouTube have Monkees episodes on there.

Anyway, back to why i love the band. My mum bought me a CD for christmas. I knew i liked a few of the songs. I had no idea how many i liked until i started playing the album and then realized that i REALLY loved a lot of their stuff. I also realized exactly why i loved the band so much.

The reason?. Micky Dolenz voice. It's so unique and really under rated. I think i could listen to him sing the GO Compare song, and still think he sounds great. I think i am more a fan of his, than the band. I mean i love a couple of Davy lead vocal songs, like A little bit me, a little bit you and Valleri, and i really like the Mike lead What am i doing hanging round and i like Shades of gray, but the idea of listening to Davy and Mike and Pete solo albums isn't really something i get really excited about, but i am actually wanting to buy Mickys solo albums.

Also he wrote two of my favourite Monkees songs, the politically themed Mommy and Daddy, which i really like, and the fantastic Randy Scouse Git, or Alternative title as it was renamed over here in the UK. Also, if you listen to Pleasant Valley Sunday and Goin' Down and P.O Box 9847 then you can really get a good idea of just how great his voice is. And why i. and a lot of other Monkees fans, think he is one of the best, and sadly under rated singers of all time.

Haven't been marketing this baby at all.

This blog is my baby. I know that it sound's sad, and it is, but when i started this blog, i decided it was gonna be all 'Me'.

No trying to be cool. No pretending i like something when i don't. This is just me.

I do realize that i haven't been marketing this blog very well. Hardly anyone knows i have one. Maybe i am just scared that no one will like it (me), but i started this blog so i could share stuff with the world, and not be scared to have my opinions and thoughts heard.

So from today, i am proud of my blog, and no more hiding it away.

Law and Order.

I love all of the law and order shows (even liked trial by jury).

My favourite show is "criminal intent'. Bobby Goren (played fantastically by Vincent D'onofrio) is probably my favourite character in the whole L&O universe. I love his quirky personality and his troubled personal life. And i adore his and Alex Eames partnership.

I love Munch, too. And Lenny Briscoe and Ed Greene. They are my second favourite partnership. Followed by Olivia and Eliott (svu), Nicholls and Serena (criminal intent) and Devlin and Brooks (l&o uk).

I also loved Mike Logan and Briscoe working together.

My favourite lawyer is probably Abbie Carmicheal. I also liked Serena Sutherland (who had a very iconic exit). Also Jack McCoy is a legend.

Also, there are a lot of 'before they were famous' guest stars. And even Julia Roberts starred in an episode of the original.

Law and Order franchise is one of my favourites ever.

I am loving "Broadchurch".

Incase you don't know, the show is a mystery drama about the murder of a boy and how the murder affects his family, the community and we also see how the police (so far attempt) to solve the murder.

Think "the killing" and you'll have an idea of how the show is playing out.

I am really enjoying it so far. I only watched it because i am a fan of David Tennant, so thought i would check it out, and i love it.

I have some idea's about who killed Danny. I think Tom could have done it, maybe with his dads help. I really do think Susan (the dog walker, who apparently uses another identity) knows more than she lets on. I think she's Jacks wife, too.

But, then again, i suspect everyone at the moment. That's why i love this show, because it's unpredictable and just when you think you have something figured out, it twists in another direction.

This and Mr Selfridge are two of the best shows on ITV recently, in my opinion anyway.

I can never find a foundation that is just right.

I have VERY pale skin. There's pale skin, and then there is my skin tone.

And the problem with having very pale skin is that trying to find foundation that doesn't make me look like a tangerine is an impossible task.

None of the high street stores seem to do pale foundation. Even the supposed pale foundations are just not pale enough.

Anyway, i have searched through some sites and i have found a few possibilities to try, so fingers crossed i find something that a) is actually pale and not orange b) that it's not too oily so it wont cause a breakout and c) hope its not too lightweight, so it can actually even out my skintone.

I know i ask a lot. But i take medications for my dry skin and breakouts, so i sometimes need foundation. And i just hope i can find a one that does everything i need.