That's my biggest 'thing'. I am really insecure. Mostly about my look's and my personality, about 90 per cent of the time i think i'm a freak, who should hide herself away from the world.
I do, at times, feel ugly, especially when i see really pretty girl's, i alway's think "i wish i looked like that". They all seem so perfect and so cool, and i'm just little old me.
I know nobody's perfect, but, at times, i really struggle to believe those 'perfect' girl's aren't perfect. I am told i'm pretty, but i just think "yeah, sure i am", in a cynical, sarcastic tone, and pay no attention at all.
And people think ditzy girl's are fake. I AM ditzy. It's not faked. God, i wish i could be one of the cool girl's, but i'm not. I am really ditzy and scatter brained. I was born that way. It's who i am, and i aint gonna change that.
I am gonna beat my insecurities someday. Somehow. I am determent to win the war.
I do, at times, feel ugly, especially when i see really pretty girl's, i alway's think "i wish i looked like that". They all seem so perfect and so cool, and i'm just little old me.
I know nobody's perfect, but, at times, i really struggle to believe those 'perfect' girl's aren't perfect. I am told i'm pretty, but i just think "yeah, sure i am", in a cynical, sarcastic tone, and pay no attention at all.
And people think ditzy girl's are fake. I AM ditzy. It's not faked. God, i wish i could be one of the cool girl's, but i'm not. I am really ditzy and scatter brained. I was born that way. It's who i am, and i aint gonna change that.
I am gonna beat my insecurities someday. Somehow. I am determent to win the war.
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