I ended thing's with my boyfriend yesterday.

I'm not really sure why i did it, especially when i know that there is still a lot of love and affection left there.

There's still a chance we can make it work.

I've had a bizzare few week's (as i've mentioned) and i go through a range of emotion's, from being scared and feeling alone and uncomfortable, to being numb and not bothered by what is happening, to having crying fit's and breaking down. Sometimes it's all of these several times in the same day.

I just have no idea what is going on in my head at the moment.

I felt i was 'bad' for my boyfriend, and felt i was adding to his misery and unhappiness.

Everything is a mess at the moment, emotionally speaking.

And my boyfriend (i can't bear to call him an 'ex' as that feel's wrong) has some thing's he need's to work on, and i'm gonna support him while he deal's with them.

That's what you do when you love someone.

I am confident that we can get that spark back and get back together someday.