I got prescribed prozac today.

I apologize to anyone who has a problem with a depressed person joking
about her illness, but that's what I am going to do here.

I know a few people with mental illness don't like jokes being made
about mental illness, and I agree to a certain degree, but my way to
cope is to joke about it.

There was a gallery of painting's displayed in the cafe I work in now
(another thing to post about) and they were painting's by a group who
have mental health issue's and disabilities. And one painting had the
word's "Were all mad in here" written on it, and people complained.

I don't want to get into a debate about that now, I just do understand
some people are uncomfortable about that.

But I do call myself crazy and I will joke about thing's in my life.
I've done enough crying and want to now embrace life.

Back to the reason of my post. I am now being prescribed prozac and
have a social worker.

I feel I can now say "I am ill" now. I feel I needed proof I was ill
for some people, and I now have it.

I have my prozac. I'm going to leave it a day or two before I start
taking them. I want to see if it was just stress making me feel
emotional the last few days, or if it was my depression.

I also want to note and experience how I feel pill free. I'm not the
kinda girl who's just gonna pop a pill and think 'that's it, I'm
cured'. I wanna know I am getting better and I have worked damn hard
to get here, and prozac or not, I will continue to work hard to get
better and I will not rely on a pill to cure me.

The prozac is a tool to my long term solution, not my solution. I
think I just need the prozac to get better enough to be able to move
on to being well.