I am very self concious about my body. Well, one part of my body, especially.
I am not stick thin. I never have been, and i never will be. It's just genetic's in my family. No woman in my family has ever been stick thin, so there is no possibility that i am gonna be a size zero. And i am good with that. I quite like having curves, and i have learnt to embrace my body.
I am quite insecure about my breasts, though. I never feel that they are large enough. I worry that they are shrinking (they are not, i was just having a paranoid moment when i tried a bra on and realized that the cup was too big. It was later discovered that the reason the bra was in the drawer, unwrapped, was because it was a cup size too big. I did worry at the time that they were dissapearing). I wanna tone up a little bit (not lose weight, just make myself a little bit more toned) and i worry that i am gonna lose my breasts when i do that.
I think about having implant's, but the thought of surgery scares me, and i don't really wanna have anything in my body that shouldn't be there (does that make sense?). I think it's good to have implant's if they will make you feel more confident and happier, but i am a person who spent most of my life being paranoid about the way i look, so if i did get implants, then i would just grow paranoid about something else. It's the way that i am programmed.
I just am gonna learn to embrace my breasts the size they are, and if they do shrink when i tone up, well, i like push up bra's, i wear them now (i like the shape they give under vest tops, which i wear a lot of) and i will just have to find some way to cope. And find some way to accept them, and love the shape (and size) i am.
I am not stick thin. I never have been, and i never will be. It's just genetic's in my family. No woman in my family has ever been stick thin, so there is no possibility that i am gonna be a size zero. And i am good with that. I quite like having curves, and i have learnt to embrace my body.
I am quite insecure about my breasts, though. I never feel that they are large enough. I worry that they are shrinking (they are not, i was just having a paranoid moment when i tried a bra on and realized that the cup was too big. It was later discovered that the reason the bra was in the drawer, unwrapped, was because it was a cup size too big. I did worry at the time that they were dissapearing). I wanna tone up a little bit (not lose weight, just make myself a little bit more toned) and i worry that i am gonna lose my breasts when i do that.
I think about having implant's, but the thought of surgery scares me, and i don't really wanna have anything in my body that shouldn't be there (does that make sense?). I think it's good to have implant's if they will make you feel more confident and happier, but i am a person who spent most of my life being paranoid about the way i look, so if i did get implants, then i would just grow paranoid about something else. It's the way that i am programmed.
I just am gonna learn to embrace my breasts the size they are, and if they do shrink when i tone up, well, i like push up bra's, i wear them now (i like the shape they give under vest tops, which i wear a lot of) and i will just have to find some way to cope. And find some way to accept them, and love the shape (and size) i am.
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